Last night for the 1st time in a very long time I felt excited at the thought of being pregnant.
Hubby and I were lying on the couch after a New Years Day braai at my parents house where he put his hand on my very bloated from holiday feasting full tummy… last night I felt excited that perhaps one day soon he’ll put his hand there to rub my very ‘bloated’ from being pregnant tummy. I climbed into the bath later and my boobs felt a little sensitive and the same ‘take your breath away breath of fresh air’ feeling came over me that perhaps it could pregnancy – how perfect a positive pregnancy test, an incredible miracle for a new year…
I read an incredible post last night too (while in the bath) about being content in God. about when special occasions become too hard – its time to lay down your desires… about not letting the desire of wanting to be pregnant or wanting to be a mom consume everything that you are, and more… Laughing inside because I am sure that there a posts in my blog previously with the words typed, “Lord, I commit this into your hands” or “God, take this from me” or “Father, I trust in your timing” Ah huh? Its that easy… NOT!
Anyway, back to the post, which was such an eye opener for me. Thank you Anna for this incredible post and not only relevant for Mothers day, but speaking to me on New Years Day http://annasjoyblog.blogspot.com/2013/05/if-mothers-day-is-hard-for-you.html I love this bit which I have copied and pasted below, which I am going to print out and stick everywhere in my house – to be reminded… yes – God is bigger (I’ve said this before) but I haven’t made Him bigger…
“Make God bigger.