Finding hope in 2014

Last night for the 1st time in a very long time I felt excited at the thought of being pregnant.

Hubby and I were lying on the couch after a New Years Day braai at my parents house where he put his hand on my very bloated from holiday feasting full tummy… last night I felt excited that perhaps one day soon he’ll put his hand there to rub my very ‘bloated’ from being pregnant tummy. I climbed into the bath later and my boobs felt a little sensitive and the same ‘take your breath away breath of fresh air’ feeling came over me that perhaps it could pregnancy – how perfect a positive pregnancy test, an incredible miracle for a new year…

I read an incredible post last night too (while in the bath) about being content in God. about when special occasions become too hard – its time to lay down your desires… about not letting the desire of wanting to be pregnant or wanting to be a mom consume everything that you are, and more… Laughing inside because I am sure that there a posts in my blog previously with the words typed, “Lord, I commit this into your hands” or “God, take this from me” or “Father, I trust in your timing” Ah huh? Its that easy… NOT!

Anyway, back to the post, which was such an eye opener for me. Thank you Anna for this incredible post and not only relevant for Mothers day, but speaking to me on New Years Day http://annasjoyblog.blogspot.com/2013/05/if-mothers-day-is-hard-for-you.html  I love this bit which I have copied and pasted below, which I am going to print out and stick everywhere in my house – to be reminded… yes – God is bigger (I’ve said this before) but I haven’t made Him bigger…

“Make God bigger.  

Or in Psalms-speak, “Magnify the LORD!”

 

Ask God to examine your heart and inmost thoughts, ask that gentle Counselor to show you where things are off. Ask Truth to show you the gifts and the work that are present in you right now, things you don’t have to wait for but can partake in now. If you have trusted in God and are on the path of discipleship to enter His Kingdom, then these things abound, I promise you.

 

I’m praying for you, friend, this morning and throughout today. Will you pray for me, too? I can write this because I’m living it. No pointing fingers here, unless it’s just to show you my own scars and tell you, “Me too.”

 

Tasty bites to get you started:

Psalm 34:3, “Oh, magnify the LORD with me, and let us exalt His name together.”

Psalm 34:8, “Taste and see that the LORD is good, blessed is the man (or woman) who trusts in Him!”

Psalm 34:15, “The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous, His ears are open to their cry.”

 

Psalm 69:29-33, “But I am poor and sorrowful;

Let Your salvation, O God, set me up on high.

 I will praise the name of God with a song,

And will magnify Him with thanksgiving.

This also shall please the Lord better than an ox or bull,

Which has horns and hooves.

The humble shall see this and be glad;

And you who seek God, your hearts shall live.

For the Lord hears the poor,

And does not despise His prisoners.”

Here I go – heading into 2014… Feeling hopeful – making God bigger…